11.05.11-Broken Friendship

Sitting there, dripped from the rain drops falling; I began to think. It reminded me so much of those days. The laughter and the smiles, I could see the image vividly in my head, but as time went by I began to wonder if we'll ever return to those glory days. Those days were genuine; we felt the love. It wasn’t anything we had to pretend; it naturally flowed and we could totally be ourselves. It somehow changed, and broke our hearts. We got distant one day and never really tried to recover the friendship we had. We moved on with our lives because we both felt helpless in this situation. What could we do? This was certainly out of our control and we had no choice. We began growing up; getting lost in our own hurt, and got influenced. We were our biggest critics and we had made plenty of mistakes but never did we ever judge each other based on that. I remember those prayer nights, the team we had. He used us like never before; I use to love the feeling of having a partner. The feeling of feeling accomplished and the way we could talk for hours about the future with our ministries. You were the only person I could talk to about anything, I felt so confident enough to admit my fears to you and I felt so comfortable enough to trust you with my mistakes. I never kept anything from you and I expected nothing from you. You were the sister I always wanted, the bond was something I had never experienced. I remember one night, things got really tough for me and I called and cried on the phone for hours and your motivating words and prayer finally got me to relax. Through thick and thin, you were there for me; my sister. I remember the day you walked away, when you left me for your worldly friends. I remember I called you asking for your advice and I remember you wouldn't answer, you told me one day that it just wasn't the same. One day, I stopped trying. I gave up the friendship and moved on because I realized that God puts people in your life to build and make your character just the way He wants it to be. I let go of the past because in order to move on I have to learn how to get back up when I’m thrown down. Now, as I walk away from you I look back and say one last thing to you, "When you decide to come back, I’ll be waiting here for you". I promise that through no matter what, I will be here for you just like you were there for me. My dear sister, I would never judge you on your mistakes just like you never did to me. I love you my sister. I forgive you and smile when I think of our friendship we had because the good out weighs the bad.